Down
I'm depressed, I feel alone, I want to be around friends but, then I remember that all of my friends are hundreads of miles away. Makes me feel even worse. Nobody would want to be around today, I'd just bring them down to. Will I ever be happy totally with my life and things that happen in it? I honestly don't think I can be.
I guess you could say I'm also jealous of some of you guys that have met eachother. I know I'll never meet any of you. I feel lucky that I get to talk to the few of you that I do on the phone as little as it sometimes is. Theres only one of you that I consider to be my best friened. A friend I can call pretty much night or day and talk if I need to. I hope I'm always friends with that person. Because, If something ever happened that we weren't friends anymore. I was talking to that friend not long ago and told her that I truely believe that she is the only one that knows how much I look forward to doing things with people because of how rare it happens. She truely knows how much it means and I couldn't believe it. Made me feel even more close to her. I can only hope she feels the same way about me.
I wish I had the guts to talk more about how I grew up. I won't mention any names but, one of you guys made a post not quite a year ago that hit home to me hard. It was more the pics that wre posted that hit home harder.
posted by ES84 @ 1:35 PM |
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