Sigh
I'm not happy today. I should be but I'm not. Why should I be? cause the NFL season has started and I'm usually watching the game right now. I was but, we're not winning and I have other things on my mind namely my roommates girlfriend. Her time staying at my aunts house is pretty much up within the next day or two and she doesn't even have another place to go yet. She's got an appointment Monday but, I'm not sure if that's at a hotel or an actual place to rent. If it's not at a place to rent, she's probably going to a hotel. My aunt tells me not to worry about her (my friend) but, how can I not? she's otherwise homeless and I can't do shit to help her out. We're trying to get a place together, (the three of us) but, me and him can't leave til the wounds that we have are healed. I'm going to talk to my in-house Dr. Friday and I go to my Doctor that did my surgery September 19th. I'm going to ask him the same question then (about when I can get ou of where I'm at and into our/my own place). All I want is a place that I know she's going to be safe at. Yes, she'll be safe at any of the places she temporarally gets but, you guys know what I mean I'm sure. I've never really cared this much about my friends before and I'm really starting to realize how much friends mean to me. It's not just her that I'm good friends with. Hell, I consider her one of my best friends. I list alot of you guys as my best friens as well. Steph, Terri and Rhonda I consider to be right up at the top aswell. Yeah, you guys are Internet/Phone friends but still. I've told you three and her things I'd NEVER tell alot of other people, including my family. I can vent to all you without getting eyes rolled at or told I'm out of my mind. Maybe I should listen to my aunt and not worry since she did give three weeks at her place it's just hard. It could of been worse. My aunt could of said no and let her live on the streets somewhere. I'm not going to be happy until we're all together. Yes, the day will come, it's just not coming fast enough. I'll put up with all her down sides wben we live together that she could hae for me to know she's safe. When I get mad at her for em, I'll just remember that she's safe and happy, and I have no reason to bitch at her for anything she ever does or says to me.
Steph, you said something in Rhonda's blog comments the other day in her post about the two of us that made me smile and laugh. It just made me realize even more how much of friends we are. I worry about you to. Especially when you call me crying or pissed about something that's happened or that Mark did. I'm actually scared that one of these days, somethings going to happen to you one way or another and I'll never have a way of finding out about it. I've even had nightmares about such things. If you ever ask my roommate how much I talk about you, You'd be surprised I think. I can't remember if I asked him or I was talking to one of my other friends about you, and the question came up as to how much I talk about you. If I remember correctly, it was atleast 95% of the time. Betcha didn't know that did ya? It's true. I know you have a lot on your plate right now with Glenda, School, Work and the probable move, but whatever you are happy with, I'l be happy with. I just don't want to ever not have contact with you in some form. I know we don't talk nearly as much as we used to but, I enjoy the times we do. The good calls and the bad. I know you will but, if I ever do anything to piss you off, make sure you tell me. I'll call you later tonight.
Now that this has turned into a post indirectly to Steph, I think I'm gonna quit now. The other reason being, I've cried atleast 3 times during this post.
posted by ES84 @ 3:54 PM |
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